"If you know the enemy and know yourself you need not fear the results of a hundred battles." -Sun Tzu

I find myself questioning lately...wondering if I have what it takes to make it through BCT. Deep down I really feel that I do. It's just that the closer I get to my ship date, the more nervous and excited I get. I truly cannot wait to leave and start all over. It is natural to fear a thing you have never experienced. But how do you redirect that into something more positive instead of turning it into self doubt?

I have this...flaw, that I can't seem to shake. That is, I am way too hard on myself. No matter what I do I always feel that I could have done better. It's a good thing in the respect that it keeps me working harder, always striving for more. It's also bad however, because I never feel that anything I accomplish is quite good enough. When this was ingrained in me, I'm not completely sure. I wouldn't want to totally erase it, just tone it down a bit for my own well-being.

17 days left. It seems the only things I truly want to do in those 17 days is listen to my music and podcasts, play PS3, relax, spend time with Jamie and go fishing with Dad. Physical training REALLY needs to be a priority now more than ever as well. I have to stop being such a procrastinator (another of my fatal flaws).

On that note, I think I will finally attempt to go to sleep at an hour that will allow me to get up at 5am. I have been "trying" to do this for about two weeks now, and always seem to find something I'd rather do than sleep. I can still think of several things even now as I type this...